Lemme tell yall something...practicing non- attachment in relationships over these past 4 to 5 yrs, is really assisting me in keeping my mental, spiritual and emotional health in the positive. Im truly truly learning how to experience someone or SOMETHING in the moments without creating a fictional happy- ever-after ending in my head or a how its "supposed" to go scenario!
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Now I will make a plan and execute it as intended and with ppl I simply show up as myself with no false pretense... but I'm not necessarily attaching myself to an outcome for the situation. Im just prepared for whatever happens. Ive been more focused now on being in the present and subsequent passing present moments AND open to experiencing what FEELS like my brand of "right" at the time. I realize in hindsight how I attracted or chose ppl in the past and built relationships with them based on my "need". See need implies "lack" or "scarcity". So to be clear... my "need" was to be loved, nurtured and cared for. I was trying to finish or rewrite my childhood with EVERYONE I formed bonds with... oh but now... I see me so clearly.
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I AM Pi Frequency realized. Myself recognizes itself. Eureka! I have awareness. I lack nothing. I AM love. I AM nature. I AM nurture. I AM universal law. I AM abundance. I AM vibration. Etc... So now going with the flow is easier because I too AM the flow... Its like the ocean realizing that it too is the waves! The symphony can now happen because the conductor is in place! I have minimal to no resistance to my truth or to "the" truth or to life. Now notice I said Im "practicing" because this IS still a practice ( probably will be for the rest of my life with fine tuning and such)and im still deprogramming myself but this is still huge for me.
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All I know is that I'm as dope as I appear and if a person chooses to squander their experience with me because of whats going on with them, thats on them. I no longer have that numbing feeling of abandonment when someone chooses to leave or fails to honor, respect, love and cherish me whether it be a romantic, platonic or business relationship. I no longer feel miserable or flawed when I DECIDE that the moments ive shared with someone has reached an end. I get from EVERY experience, what Is desired and/or required for me at that time. I will teach this to my students, earths and suns. This life lesson has been invauble. Im no master of this, but im definitely an honor roll student! Im so thankful for how these pieces come together for me. I lack NOTHING. I am abundant. So if you think im "acting" different im not. I AM different.
" and with a strong resounding {{{{AUUUUUMMM}}}}} she shattered the glass ceiling of her cage and simultaneously perforated her chrysalis and out slipped her golden horn. What had she transformed into this time???"🖖🏿
It’s def not easy for me to read this because it reminds me of the attachment I’m currently harboring and my fear of losing this attachment. A big part of me is like, “why would I wanna be away from this person? I want to be with them all them time”. But I’m working on healing my issues with validation and abandonment though, slowly but surely
Thank you queen. I struggle with non attachment. And I all I need to remind myself is I lack NOTHING.